:: Misunderstood ::

Despite my busy school sked, i'm really happy that i've been able todo some work as well on the side this month, like the previous 3 years. Difference is that this time around i'm on my last year before finally heading to university in the Big Apple. I've been stressed lately, mainly coz of school work and deadlines. (And this is just the beginning of the year:(...). But like they say, you only get trials when you can actually put up to the challenge. And michael is up for it ;)

This month was a pretty hectic for someone that just does modelling on the side. Aside from being on a spread for this months edition of a magazine (text me if you wanna know which one;)..) and landing the cover of the Y-Style section in the Philippine Inquirer a few weeks ago, I'm really grateful for what i have at this point in time. Yesterday, I got interviewed for this lifestyle show airing this weekend (so if you wanna know what show and it's airing time, feel free to message me as well). It was weird not hosting for a while and the host gave me great questions about modelling, life, girls and much more.

Got one special message for a great friend :
"Don't worry, it's gonna be alright. If you need a friend I'm just a call away. Be strong and always remember we got your back! Il try to stop by when i can. You know who u are;) ..."

I could write pages if i just enumerate everyhting that we've already learnt within just one simple week. I'm so happy, and I haven't been in a very long time. ;) So il just get to the weekend.
I'm sure that won't sound so boring....

Instead of going out on friday, I decided to stay home and work. We were asked to translate 25 pages form the IB Biology book from English to German, so I decided: Hey, if i'll be out on saturday, i might as well get some rest today. Well, in the end i slept at 3am, but I sat infront of my laptop typing from 6.30pm-2.45am (and I'm not exaggerating on this). It made me happy, because for once I felt productive again after a long time!

So saturday, I headed to makati and partied with my closest friends... I had a blast! After checking out 'Red Eye' (Rachel McAdams is so hottt :)...) i had to split up and attend this event @ rockwell for the modelympics afterparty in mati. Twas kickass because we finally got our prizes (gc's, money etc.) and free drinks! ;) That was definitely a good thing, because now that I'm in school i only go out once/twice a week instead of 5times a week like during the summer vacation.
After a few drinks, I headed to the fort to meet my batchmates (finally felt good talking with with people that are up for anything and don't crash and bring down others with their pessimism).. ;)
At the fort, more drinks came my way and the funniest part is that most people were so smashed that they ended up slipping with so many secrets.
Unfrotunately, that's for me to keep hehe!

Well Sunday, relaxed chilled day: studied 3 hours for Biology and ran some erunds at home ... I also received an overseas call from New York City!!! And it totally made my day.

Ina, i'm real sorry we couldn't hit embassy. I'll make it up yo you ;)

Michael

School finally started, it's my first school day and it's crazy how our school changed over two months. Our classrooms are newly furnished, everything renovated. It was practically mindblowing, when i first entered the hallway. Although many changes have been made, it's still quite unusual hehe. I'll need some time to get used to it, but it's all good ;)
Just glad I'll be productive again!

i miss my sister everytime i see this pic. Yup, we're pretty close :( but it's cool. 1 more year and off to New York i go :) Can't wait!

If you've met her, you'll practically think we're twins, coz we have so much in common. Modelling, Teh drive to accelerate in whatever you do, Arts, Photography and Fashion Design. Thanks to her I've managed to keep my feet on the ground. I even remember her saying to me before she left:

"Michael, whatever happens to us in the future,whether we end up beggars on the streets or become the most successful and rich people out there,...We'll NEVER change. That's our promise to each other."

That's one thing all our friends admire with the two of us. We have this great bond and despite all the blessings and opportunities that've come our way, we are still teh same people we were when we started. Countdown starts.... NOW! Hab dich so so lieb Sandrini und vermiss dich auch sehr sehr doll~!

Last week of work.
Real busy with work, jobs and going out and my friends. Yup, two of my closest ones are finally back! Been going out constantly, it's insane. And guess what? They said I've become so spontanious, in a good way. Hahahaha, that just made me laugh ;)

Really gonna miss everyone from work: The other day one of them told me: "You know what Michael... We're really gonna miss you." (and she blushed). That got me speechless. I was happy to finally be done with work and get back to school, but I'm practically gonna leave something valuable behind from this experience.But it's all good. ;)

Somehow pieces and people are coming back into my life after a while and I'm starting to feel complete again.
Watched the Truth about love and the longest yard. Both very inspiring movies... The truth about love even made me tear a little towards at the end,... it ispired me to become a better person. I want to treat my girl like a princess and make her feel like the luckiest woman on earth. But I know actions speak louder than words.

;)

This past week was hectic as hell: Shoots, work, school work and going out almost every night! Tiring but worth it, because it's practically my last week before school starts. Gotta enjoy ;)


Current Faves
The Killers - The Album
Audioslave - Be yourself
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
Coldplay - Fix You

I am so glad that I'm heading back to school in a few weeks... I'm keen on learning form diverse cultures and expanding my knowledge even more. I'm always up for hearing other people's opinions on certain matters. This whole drama has really stressed me out and I'm so glad that I'm finally FREE. No more backstabbing, no more false friends. I'm happy that I've dropped people that have been abusive towards me over this summer. Although you can say that I've lost contact with some individuals, I've gained so much more in return. Aside from becoming stronger in character, I did some crazy stuff, that I didn't even know i had in me. People know me as being super attached and for once, Filipe was right: I did have to do something, atleast once in my life and i did ........something with NO emotional attachment. Props to me ;) LOL...

6 things I've learned this summer:

1) Never trust anyone you've only known for a while
2) always watch out with what you say to certain people, coz they can always say the opposite behind your back (Looks can be deceiving ...)
3) Some people's words have no value. Wordgiven and promise has no value.
4) Never let supposed "friends" find fault in you, just because they can't deal with their own issues
5) I never thought that something as seemingly "timid" as Insecurity , can be the root of so much EVIL.
6) Thankful that i NEVER needed to prove to people to be all MACHO, in order for them to like me.
Two AWESOME individuals i have met over these weeks? Definitely keepers ;)

James, man... you rock! It was a priviledge to get to know you this summer and it truy is a blessing! Can't wait to watch movies, go drinking, shisha, embassy and plainly coffee talk! Cheers to more hang outs bro ;)

Bla-who-wee Grace ;).... the first time I met this girl, i was totally intrigued. There was something that drew my attention. And i was right. Not only is she physically attractive, she's a beautiful person from within as well! Talk about total package ;) Through these last weeks, we've been able to establish a real and lasting friendship... with an emotional attachment, which I'm very grateful for. Some try to find their ways to get something from the physical, I search for the soul in special people. We've gotten to knwo each other on so many levels, we totally compliment each other!
Can't wait to see you in New York Grace! Totally bullocks ;)

"Life is a mixture of triumph and tragedy," as John F. Kennedy once said. I totally agree. Through hardships and problems, there's always a reward in the end. What is required from us? Patience. That's about it. I'm thankful that up to this point in my life, despite hinderances and people trying to pull me down with their misery, Ive managed to stand firm with my own morals and principles and tact. Just when you think you've lost so much, You realize you've gained so much more in return!

"PRACTICE MAKES PREFECT! ;) cheers to my new theory!"

Appreciating my....
CONFIDENCE
PRIDE
DIGNITY
HUMILITY
HONESTY
STRENGHT

People that are caught up in their insecurities should get a life. Seriously! I'm glad I surround myself with positive people, to remain optimistic ;)
(My friends that are still there for me really understand this with me. Merci beaucoup mes copains!)

NOTE: Unfinished business: This fire in me is ready to be unleashed!

Everything is self-explanatory. I feel as though light was shed upon me to see what's right and wrong, who's real and just there...to direct the path.
Content with the decisions I've made.
Appreciative with the friends that have always been there for me, through THICK AND THIN... accepting me for the person that I am today, despite my flaws, I know that no one's perfect. Thank you, for being honest with me all the time, I just want to express my gratitude.

"Vielen vielen dank an meine richtigen Freunde. Ihr seit noch da für mich, und mit diesem ganzen Chaos bin ich endlich wach. Hab bemerkt wer echt ist und nicht. Hab endlich durch die rightigen Leute, die auch da für mich sind erfahren, dass man keinen nehr vertrauen kann. Bin so froh, dass ich durch diese Erfahrung erfahren konnte, wer mich akzeptiert für wer ich bin vor meinem Gesicht und auch hinter meinem Rücken."

Actually I might stop updating my LJ soon, because I've had friends (you know who you are) that created a warfare through journal entries. I mean, if you have a problem and claim to be an honest friend, why not say it straight to the persons face, instead of pretending to be all cool about it and going against that person behind his/her back. Real immature.
Sometime one must take action in order to avoid such a problem. Hopefully this will make you realize ;)

Time to move on.

ONE LAST THING: I learned that less talk, is less mistake with certain people. Glad I'm aware of that now. People will always try to find criticsm to save them from their problems and caught up situation, because they can't deal with it themselves. So they put others down to make themselves feel better. I feel bad for such people. But they choose to lead such a life. Happy i can still be ME around my real friends. :)

People
They don't mean a thing to you
They move right through you
Just like your breath
But sometimes
I still think of you
And I just wanted to
Just wanted you to know
My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

Sometimes
I forget I'm still awake
I f**k up and say these things out loud

My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

really disappointed....
good thing i was able to calm down and think about some things, but it still didn't change the things that were said.
Behind one's back.
People complimenting your talent when you're present and saying the exact opposite when you're not.
A sign, i think.
Guess no one's trustworthy anymore....
Except a few that have ALWAYS been honest with me, even when it hurt. Thank you. And am very grateful to know you. You know who you are.
very, very...
no comment.

I recently watched the movie "Crash" with Sandra Bullock, among many other great actors. And while in the cinema with a friend, we were in awe. The movie is real intense, but definitely worth your money. It's one of those movies that follows a patten and keeps you guessing til' the end, and in the final minutes of the movie, everything makes sense. I really like those kinds of movies....

it's main topic?
-RACISM.

Definitely a must-see movie worth anyone's money. The reason why I'm sort of promoting it is merely, because it's such an excellent, well-directed movie.
So check it out, if you can ;)

It's August 12th now, and as I'm looking back into time one month ago, I realize just how much I've developed over the short time span of a month. I feel as though, I've become more responsible, and have met great individuals. Unfortunately, every happy ending must come to an end...especially, when it's a repetitive case. I feel like I myself have witnessed a crash between people that I did truly care about. It makes me sad, but I know that everyhting happens for a reason. Sometimes you think you've lost something, but eventually realize that you've gained so much more in return. It's been a shaky ride, but along the way I've gotten to learn so many things that will make me a better person and will prepare me for the journey that lies ahead...

5 E's: (sad, disappointed, happy, content, independent)

"Everything happens for a Reason..."